Frustration

As Wine seduced lonely heart
She seduced my mind
But is it God's Grace I don't know
For I don't find ample sum of money
To make her trust by being in my life
Nor For Wine even when I am lonely.

Life its moving so slowly
When my desire is to fly high
And conquer Whatever I can.
But I find bounded in time
To move so slowly that
I hate being myself in this way.

I have seen friends who were with me
Reaching great heights, but still I remain
Where I was, years before with them.
Was I weak,was I not smart enough
That today I am weeping alone.

Is that the lord is making me humble
Is that the lord is making me focused
More to my desire I don't know
But it pains more when life is moving slowly

Failure

I believe,
A time will come when I will leave you
But never will I forget you,
For you have been my shadow so long
Whenever I was in race.

You have wept me, but have made me think
To know more and more to be brave
For when he is beside you ,you find nobody
As a good companion for long time.

I have cried from within
For my aim was to fly
But again and again
I was bound to be in my den.

In the lonely hours you taught
How painful it is to have you
Even in brim of success
No one will ever know how
Much pain you offered in long run.

But still those who have not experienced you
Will never know how sweat is success.

Silence

Can silence vanish anger from mind
It  sleeps in mind but will rise at a time
Then can silence be a mark of peace
It is just the suppressed mind where
It is not free from hatred or jealous.

Silence, it helps the fool at times
When he is ignorant about some
But  if the wise will be silent
What if he has a cup of knowledge.

Silence has named some matured
It has named some to be coward
Some silent guys were called fools
And so its better to rock than be silencer.

Can silence heal the wound of time
It may lessen others anger for a time
When both are engaged in a fight
But still the wound may not vanish.

Can silently meditating help to lessen
Pressure of mind to day by day.
It may help but still pressure will continue
Till you say goodbye to this world.

Silence it sometimes irritates much
When you are alone and its magnitude
Increases till you find a companion
With whom  you can share your thoughts.

Fear

A silent fear settles my mind
And now I feel all alone
And now I feel why we
Are bound to believe in God
For now I feel all alone.
For my close ones is aging day by day
And I feel insecure inside
Where my wallet still remains empty.
All who are now around
Will find their own way
If something bad happen.

Love

What made my eyes gaze at you
Something new I experienced
When I saw you that day
That made me to think of you
All the day, I remember that day
When I was knowing myself .

What made my thought stuck
Before that day I was living
In carefree without any much thoughts
All in a sudden I lost in thought about you
All harsh words that I heard from others
For different reason just melted away
For my thought was just you dear.

It was my first love and now
After years when I see her
With her hands holded tight
By her cute little babe I don't
Know how to hide tears in my eyes.

Old Age Home

He holded my hands and open the gates
Just as I opened the gates once
When I holded his small hands
And he stepped into world of knowledge.

But then in his eyes I saw tears
And now when he open the gates
Where I see just people of my generation
 I fear to hide my tears from him
Who is eager to leave me alone.

Its better to live with one who have heart
Than to live with those who ignore
And have only hatred in mind.
But still he will never know
Till he will be left here by his son.

Death

I heard her last deep breath
Breaking the silence of room
Tears fled from her dear ones
As someone closed her eyes.

To stand beside I feared
And walked away from her
As tears came in my eyes
Even when I saw her
For first time in my life.

She was next to my friend's room
Who was lying in bed wounded
From few days back .

As I walked away from her
Million thoughts came to my mind.
Before she enjoyed her youth
As she crossed the road
Her fate changed forever.

Her dreams her pride beauty
All changed in a while.
Life is so simple Why
We make it  so complex.

Its an habit for many
To read the last chapter
Before the beginning
And so is our life but still we fail
To live our life in its fullest joy.

Sigh

The vast sea lies in front of me
The sea is now so calm at evening
But she has changed my mind
From a year back and I have lost faith
Waiting for my beloved son over here in my hut.

In my life ever my fate was to wait
Seventeen years I waited for my father ever
Who left us and went abroad but never did he came.
Again ever I waited in evening with prayers
Till my man caught sardines, prawns and alike
From the mid sea everyday and made a living.

And still fate parted us when one evening
I saw him floating after a stormy night
By the violent sea, but still then
In this shore I alone taught his son
To walk in this shore.

But the violent sea doesn't see
The tears in my eyes as I lost my beloved
And now I missed my only son
In the violent roars of sea again
And I am waiting for him over here even now.

I am losing my patience now
For I have no fear to die
In this vast sea but still ,If he comes,
He won't be just an orphan.

Your Presence

I never thought till I saw you
My heart will move in this way
As I felt when I met you
And it felt in same way
Again and again whenever I saw you.

Where have you been so long
I felt myself heartless in solitude
My mind like a graveyard in desert
When the sun is at its highest peak.

But now your voice make me tender
And it gives me a warm feeling
A feeling which I need to last long
By having you near me all the time.

Alone

The night is so cool, as the wind flows
My heart longs to dance in the darkness.
The mild raindrops,add charm to night
But still my heart, feels something missing.

Whose presence may enchant my heart more.
I might fail the beauty of night sometimes;
But I would have seen more splendid night,
Gazing just at her twinkling eyes,
If for sure she is just as I wished for
In my dreams or oh night to be alone
And admire the twinkling stars is what I wish.


I hear the cuckoo from somewhere
At noon—but to seek it is to squander the hours.
But in solitude hearing the melody voice
Makes cool for at least sometime.
Wished someone beside whose words
Can cheer my heart even in boring noon.

But if she starts to count my faults
Oh noon I am much happy with
The sweet voice of cuckoo
Even if it is from somewhere.